Live Your Life

Last post: 2010 resolutions, edited on 03/01/2010

This wordpress is dead, dead, dead, and there are still people viewing this? Thanks to all those who still view this shitty blog of mines. Most people are probably using tumblr now, but I’ll stick to WordPress. I’ll try to revive this blog by adding a few more inspirational stories kinda thing.

Why the sudden revival and not let it die? Well, one of the main motivations of reviving this blog is due to school. School? You gotta be kidding me. Not. I’ve been failing GP, so maybe writing a few ‘essays’ will help, even though it will never come out in A levels, like I said before, I want something to reflect on. Life has been in chaos, I’m tired, I’m bushed, sum in up in two words, fucked up. So a portal for me to channel my thought would be extremely useful now for me.

Now I see my mom spending 12 hours on FaceBook and I wrote a wall post for her. Guess what, she deleted me as a friend. lol? Now given a little time to reflect, it’s her fucked up life she’s living, not mine’s. She’s the one wasting her life on the computer, not me, why should I care? Only problem is that she’s hogging the computer and I can smell my dad’s overheating computer already. If she doesn’t want help, fine be it. I get scolded for helping my mom. That’s a first, and now come to think of it, I fucking miss my dad. It’s true, although we spend so little time together, it is all those small moments that counts. Hope you’re doing well overseas appa (dad in korean), sarangheyo (love you in korean)

This made me also reflect on my addiction on games, particularly one game called MapleStory, and if you ask me to rewind back 4 years and ask if I would play maple. I would, cause you can’t learn without failing. One by one, every 1 of us quitted maple, due to our busy lives already. When I stopped playing maple, I suddenly found so much time to do more stuff. These are life lessons which will affect you for the rest of your lives. Trust me, in just 3 years in Dunman High, I learnt so many life lessons which I wouldn’t have learn elsewhere.

So what now for Guardian? Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, swimming, swimming. It’s just 4 months to Senior High, better late never, from now on, I’m going to live life to how I want to live it, and no-one is going to change it. Even as I’m typing this post, I’m getting happier already, because hopefully I’ll change for the better. Ironically, it took a few words of my Geography teacher to make me realise that. Man, I’m really fucked up.

I’ll end this post with one of my current ‘addictions’, *obvious right?* and what makes their performances so nice to watch? Practise, practise, practise, sprinkled in with some hardwork and determination. Some of them took 7 years of training just to debut, and they are referred as idol groups since many fans support them. Idol in another sense means someone to look upon, so maybe this will inspire me to do well when I see their performances. 9 days to guitar concert, focus nick focus you fag 😡

“Change is a welcomed friend…but only if it is invited.”
– Shane Pendley

I’m laying down the red carpet down already baby.

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Birthdays are a bummer

1st post for August, and decided to post something else, other than random stuff about my blog. A few days ago, someone said about my blog and me putting up stuff (I think you know who), so today I’m going to be doing something different, as title above. Haha.

My Birthday Experience

Just celebrated one of my mother’s friend’s daughter’s birthday *lol* and there were a lot of people, around 50+, and their house was huge =.=. Played Mahjong with some people I don’t even know, and I got 1 自模 and nothing else, so lost around $10. There were many people around the same age as me, so we chatted about life and stuff, and made a couple of friends. The ironic thing is I don’t even know this girl, and some of the people came just for fun or were forced to come, like me! Didn’t manage to get a slice of the cake also, and the girl seems to be more interested in the gifts than the guests. I can see her hogging her laptop, going on her FaceBook as everyone wishes her “Happy Birthday!”. One of her friends showed me her blog, and she was blogging during her birthday? wow. She was bitching around and some shit about a quick update and “in order of the people who wished me happy birthday”. To be honest, that was my first birthday party I attended that I didn’t even get to wish the birthday boy/girl “Happy Birthday”.

I hate birthdays, birthdays are a bummer.

Let me explain myself. I don’t hate other people celebrating their birthdays. I think it’s a thing of joy and fun that in this world where there is so much pain and suffering, people can take time out to dedicate one day of the year to have fun! =D

What I mean is that I hate that birthdays are getting out of hand, and are not just the same. Birthdays are no more the simple party where you invite a couple of friends, blow out the candles and make a wish. Now, birthdays are more of a competition or a day where you expect a lot of presents. In the U.S, if you ever see the show “My Sweet 16”, you would see girls competiting to see who throw the best parties, invited the most people and the hottest celebrities, and they are a bunch of spoiled brats. I still remembered there is 1 girl, who was crying that she got a BMW, but she wanted a Land Rover. wtf? Even in Singapore, I can see people competiting who got the most wall-posts in FaceBook, what they got, this kind of shit. Hey gratz, you have 33 people in this order wishing you happy birthday! =.=

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Even they hate being the same, nah I’m just crapping =.=

2006 was the worst birthday for me. I went through the entire day and no one outside of my family except a few people even said “Happy Birthday.” Must be secondary school blues. So for the next two years, I vowed not to fall into pathetic self-pity. I enjoyed my birthday for the last two years, went out to Taka Macs, had some friends, chatted, and someone will always buy a cake, sang a song, went home, mom and dad and sis celebrates again, Happy Ending. I remembered last year, I think the only people from 3F wishing me happy birthday wereYoke Ming, Shi Kai and Janson, and even Yoke Ming remembered my birthday, and Janson just landed from Australia. I was not really familar with Yoke Ming last year (now I know him better, he likes Chinese Songs. no pun intented) I don’t expect much from my birthdays, probably because I have low exceptions or the fact that people don’t even know which day I am borned at. Big deal, I don’t give a damn anyway, as long as I have friends, that’s good enough. There are many other people suffering in the world and having water to drink or food to eat is a ‘birthday’ to them.

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always love chocolate cakes

When I was younger, I was like any normal child, I used to look forward to my birthday with much anticipation, eagerly expecting the cakes, drinks and gifts during the celebration. I think birthdays stared to be a bummer when I went to secondary school and my birthday falls on November, which is supposed to be a good time to celebrate brithdays since the whole school year has ended, but hell not, my birthday always seem to get forgetten. Birthdays were no longer a star attraction for me,and biw I just look back and wonder what the whole point is. So, you lived on Planet Earth for another year. Big woohoo! If you really look at it, there are many other things worth celebrating. There are other events in your life that can be worth celebrating because they fill you with happiness when you remember them…

…like acing a common test…

…graudution day…

…getting your first job…

…driving your first car…

…your first meeting with the love of your life…

…moving out to live on your own…

…getting married…

…and being able to look back in 10 years, and have a smile or two…

For me, I have no memory of anything on the day I was born! In fact, my mother should be celebrating it, not me, because not only did she had to put up with nine months of pregnancy, she also endured hours of very painful childbirth!

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So most of the world will still carry on celebrating birthdays, but there is no need to celebrate mines. You must be thinking, you are going to let one stupid party ruin your birthday experience? Yes and No. Yes, because after today, it makes me think twice about celebrating my own birthday. No, because after thinking about it, birthdays are nothing really special, just another day in the 365-day year.

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This dog doesn’t seem to enjoy his birthday too

Always remember, never forget.