Love how I am posting here on a more regular basis, but maybe it shows how “free” I am HAHA whoops, which isn’t a good sign. In terms of real-life happenings, there’s nothing really new to update; but rather more realisations on the principles in life that I have always looked upon and the people in my life who I would want to keep. (Yes I know those who may be reading this, so I thank you for random HTHT moments which allow me to realise that I should focus on my own improvement rather than being engrossed at happenings that aren’t simply worth it.)
We are at a age where we should stop giving excuses; and we are at a stage in life where we should stop blaming others and take a good look at one’s self instead. No one is going to care whatever you went through, whatever situation you were in. So do yourself a favour because no one is going to take pity of you. Again, it’s so easy to be in a loss and forget the improvements you want to achieve as a person. I didn’t believe in stories about superficial friendships in university back in army, but stories you listen slowly turn into reality. I never expected certain relationships to end up like what it has become today after coming back from exchange, as the happy sheltered bubble which DHS has built for us slowly crumbles. Yes people are inherently selfish and insensitive human beings, life is like that so what matters is how you responds to toxic situations like this. REMEMBER AND APPLY; RINSE AND REPEAT! Accept what is, let go of what was, and have faith in what will be.
Still reverting to old habits so again, little reminders to myself for the month: Open up and talk more, but to the right people; Maintain eye contact when you speak with others and body language is always important! Be confident, but that only comes with more trying and more practicing. Sometimes, it’s okay to make the first move because it shows that you valuable some things over your pride. Your heart is going to waver at so many moments and you’re going to hate that you can’t do anything to combat the feeling. Amidst everything that will come towards you, continue staying true to yourself.
To the friends who are fighting their own individual battles: just know that although I don’t have the words to make you feel better, but I do have a pair of ears which will always be ready to listen to whatever you want to talk about and a heart which wants you to be truly happy and see you smile again. Forget what hurt you, but never forget what it taught you.
6 weeks left for this semester, let’s rock it.