It has been an emotional roller coaster ever since I came back from exchange; for all the wrong reasons. Revisiting ugly sides of human beings, dealing with fake and toxic personalities whose actions disgust the hell out of me. Couldn’t focus on anything in life; feeling like I’m just living day by day. The whole body feel physically exhausted as well: lack of good sleep, pimples breaking out (awesome skin during exchange you will be missed T.T), losing weight and feeling lethargic so easily. It was seriously the worst way ever to start the new year. “What the fuck did I do to deserve this?” The thought which came up to my mind most of the time, but then again there are too many other things to be grateful about in my life. Everything just felt too ridiculous and it just kept coming. Tl;dr life has been shit LOL. Only recently, things started to settle down slightly and the breathing space I so dearly needed is finally there.
Again, this is just another post for myself as a reminder that better moments in life will be coming, and the only way is up from here. In the midst of all these
shit happenings, there has been many takeaways and revisiting of life lessons. 3 years ago I was still stuck in army; and growth has been exponential ever since, especially as an university student. Thankful (as always yet again) for the short moments of temporary getaways where I didn’t have to deal with this emotional bullshit. Life’s greatest blessings do truly come in the weirdest forms and funniest timings.
What you’re supposed to do when you don’t like a thing is change it. If you can’t change it, change the way you think about it. Don’t complain.
No idea when this turning point for the semester will come, but for now let me try to work my way back on track. Back onto my self-proclaimed FABULOUS FEBRUARY! Trust your own intuition, trust your instinct, trust your inner self. There is no need to justify your actions and feelings; just do what works for you. You have a bad day, you go to bed, you wake up, and you work a little harder.