Traveling and being away from home also gave me the opportunity to focus on myself and get to know myself better. Meeting people from around the world, hearing their stories and visiting places I only imagined as a kid made me realise how small we are and how much there is to see and experience out there. I began to realise how so many of us get caught up with negativity that we often neglect not only the people around us but ourselves… Our twenties are fleeting and we will never be this free to spend this kind of time together, so I’m going to take this time to strengthen friendships and to take care of myself before we all get swept up by work, adulthood and life.
Read the above from a post on FB, pretty much sums up the essence of exchange and the mid-twenties crisis as we reach towards the final years as a student. It’s time for the traditional mid-semester
rant reflection, and I’ll do my best to instil some positivity into this post! Shall split this post into smaller sections so that I can dissect the happenings so far in 2017.
Rather than pondering whether it was the right choice to stay in TB3, I shall focus on the takeaways I had during those 2 short weeks leading up to D-Day. I already mentioned whatever was in my mind previously, but the foreign feeling was something which I was really dejected about during that period. So I drowned myself in practice in order to brush off any negativity that may have hindered me. I wasn’t proud of the work ethic and attitude I had towards this year’s concert neither; there was absolutely no motivation, only fear and guilt that I may be a burden to my fellow song mates. The motivation for dance only truly came after concert LOL (a little too late hahaha), so thankfully there was an outlet for the negativity bottled up in the heart. Sometimes I wonder if I had really went to Korea for exchange, would I have the discipline to go 1million on a regular basis HAHA, but I shan’t think of the what if’s because travelling across Europe was truly an eye-opener.
Big 4 Applications & Interviews
I really procrastinated this important task till after concert was over. I had to do some minor changes to the resume and cover letter, along with more psychometric and aptitude online tests. I never considered my resume and CAP to be very impressive, so I was pleasantly surprised to get at least one invite for an interview. Took time off the regular mugging to prepare for interviews in a much more serious manner this time around, but the initial nervous feeling was still there. The fluff is there, but crafting answers from past experiences in university made me realise how much I really stepped out of the comfort zone. Just another reminder how adulthood is truly creeping in and how I should treat my post-graduate plans on a more serious note. Crossing my fingers that I’ll be accepted to any 1 of them, and my summer holidays plan would be set! If not… time to go internship searching round 2 T.T
Time to stop caring (along with everything else!)
Let this be the last time that I will revisit this point. Emotions were in a total mess, but as time passes the heart settles down and these past few days have been small steps back to the correct direction. Building walls around the heart; and having no idea who are the ones that I could truly let those same walls come down. Life really has a way of surprising you with unexpected moments that will bring about many different emotions. Short takeaways for 2017 thus far: Learning how to accept imperfectness and ignore toxicity; focus on yourself and being your true genuine self. It’s so easy to lose your ownself in times of chaos and turmoil, so again don’t let the heat of the moment kill everything. Things happen and you might have your own opinion, but in the end none of these would actually matter in the future.
Meanwhile, taking 4 3k accounting core modules is such a brain cell killer, and I have been so off-form for the first half of the semester. Going to sectionals unprepared, giving low quality questions/answers for class participate and not preparing sufficiently for group projects, WAKE UP YOUR IDEA NICK! So please remember to prioritise, prioritise & prioritise! Signing out because I got a cheat sheet to prepare whoops! (yes back to minute and colorful handwriting) Going a bit off-topic now but omg Yoojung Lee is now my dance bias (insert emoji with heart eyes HAHAHA); the inner fanboy doesn’t die. December Korea Goals? Nahhhhh let’s focus on mid-terms first bleh hahas