Baby I was born this way~

Motivation at an all time-high. *screams*

This won’t be a really long post, just another Friday post I like to write after a hectic week. I don’t know why, but I suddenly found motivation to chiong. Not sure why, but it’s doing wonders. It’s the kind of motivation which makes you want to scream to the world that “I can do it.”. This motivation is kind of strange, since they are sort of positives and negatives. So why do I want my A’s? For myself? Now, it’s more of the push to prove to others that I can do it, and whatever I’m achieving now isn’t just a one-time fluke. Now every time I study at school, I find myself smiling and smirking at the same time. Why? I’m smiling because I’m enjoying this ride, and no matter what happens around me, it just seems insignificant when you are focused. So why do I smirk? Well, I know that every time I get something productive done while others don’t, I’m climbing up slowly in the rankings and even if I don’t, I can find myself improving. I always like to “release” a sigh of relief, because I know that what I do will pay off, and at the end of the year, it would be all worth it.

So this is my mindset now, those who work hard and are willing to put in the effort, I wish that your efforts pay off and it will reflect in your results. Every time I go to the canteen or the library, I feel motivated to see people studying there. 100% pure focus, and makes me want to buy a drink, find a table and start mugging myself. Unlike some jokers out there, still playing around and relaxing when they are already behind. Keep fooling around, I’m happy that you’re having fun. I’ll like to see if you still can smile when you see your results. (: You people are already behind, and yet no actions are taken. In some sense, these group of people are my source of inspiration as well. They kinda reminds me of myself at Year 5, which points to the fundamental problem of getting your priorities correct. Less than a year ago, I just kept procrastinating, no motivation and as expected, fucking up my studies. I can still remember the criticism where people question my ‘luck’ in the Promos, and that they ‘mug goddamn hard’ for the whole year and yet they get worse results than me, who probably only chiong in the last 2-3 months. Well, the tides have turned. I’m making sure I don’t return to my old ways, and in the process, I would hopefully able to prove all my doubters.

Maybe all my recent posts have been too focused on my studies, but now studies are obviously my top priority. Never be afraid, and just run ahead. I feel bloody fucking awesome now. *goes back to do some work*.

I’m on the right track baby I was born this way~

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