Tutorials > All

My mind is currently blank. But still, I would like to write this post as a source of inspiration for the future and something I can refer back to in the future.

One senior told me, tutorials are the most important things to do. Don’t lack behind, and it’s a must to do them. I’m trying a new approach of chionging my tutorials, and in some sense it’s working. I’m way ahead in Maths, somehow ahead in Chemistry (because my teacher is soooooo slow) and ok with Economics (especially when your teacher don’t go through much). I find myself trying too much at times, but I’m guess that’s necessary if you want to do well. These few days I’m questioning myself, how badly do I want my As? But more importantly, how much am I willing to put in for those grades? I badly want those As, but I question if I have the ability to get them. Sometimes, your best isn’t good enough, but that does not mean that you should just slack, which I am guilty of these days.

So what for Term 2? I was low on morale these past days, no thanks to the 사랑니 (love tooth), better known as wisdom tooth. What an irony. I haven’t had good sleep in a while, and I go to school all tired and can’t do anything productive. However, the ‘closet mugger’ (lol) sense in me naturally came back and I started to pick myself up. I now believe that I’m a stronger person already, and it’s been only a week. From now, I won’t care about all the negatives around me, because as I said before but somehow I can’t apply, it’s just not worth the time. If they fuck around, let them be. I want my As, and I will willing go to the other side of the canteen or the library and mug myself for two and a half hours. (Geez, I think I’m repeating the same stuff all over and over again…)

Now I know that I’m no more at the bottom, I’ll have to slowly work to the top. You must realize that the people at the top are probably putting in more effort than you, so not only you must match it, you must put in more effort than the ridiculous amount of effort that they are putting in. My guitar instructor told us that you must make yourself so good that no one can catch up with you. I’m living by that rule now: Making sure that no one at the bottom can catch up with you, and putting in endless effort to push yourself to the top. Time is absolutely important, so you can’t waste any minute of it. For any time you slack, you are giving people to catch up to you. Don’t give them even a little bit of chance to get up.

Lol this post is kinda quite moody and not really happy. I’ll try to write when I’m happier next time haha. Won’t be so active here, maybe after SYF or something, but I’ll surely be still here. At the meantime, this is one the most incredible live performance I’ve seen in a while. Love every second of it, from the instrumental to the backup vocals to Justin Timberlake =D

The reason I love guitar <3

So why did you make the choice a year ago…

After today, I can dare say I never regretted making that choice. Sure, it’s been tough, especially for the next few weeks, but like I said, absolutely, 100% no regrets.

Although I always get niao-ed about not practicing or being called for having a name similar to Coke (lol whut?), I don’t mind it because frankly, I deserve the criticism and I have this tendency to choke hardly when I’m nervous. But, I cannot stand it if someone question’s your determination, your passion. Not sure which words would be more appropriate to use here, but you get the jizz of it. If you aren’t going to help the cause, then stop adding fuel to the fire. Why did I join Guitar? Because I fucking love it. I love how you can play almost any song with 4 simple chords, and I love the emotions that songs played by the guitar that can bring out, which strangely other instruments can’t bring out. I always love to hear acoustic covers of songs on my iPad. It’s light on the ears, but yet it sound so awesome. Bring in a few simple percussion beats and it’s complete. I just have this preference with guitar over piano. Maybe because pianos are getting too common and boring.

Today in the SYF Exchange, I truly learnt how music is a universal language. Seeing how schools play completely different genres of songs on the guitar, it broadened my perspective of classical songs. Although the ensemble probably don’t know each other well, but on the stage, everything just comes naturally together and we let our guitars do the talking. On paper, the songs sound excellent but what many people don’t see is the countless hours of practice behind it. The more passion you have, the easier and more natural the practice feels. It kinda feels like me practicing the drums before CenterStage. Although I was playing on a plastic drum set on Wii, the songs naturally came in and when you are engrossed in something music, you generally lost track of time, because you are doing what you love.

If I didn’t join Guitar, I wouldn’t have know that I could actually play a musical instrument. I kinda brought back my love for drums years ago as well. It taught me how to be confident, especially when 800 pairs of eyes are on you at that moment. Revolution would not be part of my life, and music would be nothing else but something which I listen on my iPod Touch. When music communicates, it just seems to have the ability to bring people together. Love those random jamming sessions in the guitar room or even on the bus, you just need someone on the guitar and everyone just seems to sing along (especially someone like me who is shy finds myself sing along, even when I sound horrible =o). This journey seems to be heading for an end soon, but it would be just the beginning, and I would definitely continue if I somehow manage to get into NUS, haha.

I’m bushed from the 3 days of guitar. I’ll need to catch up on my work, starting by visiting my beloved Starbucks next thing tomorrow morning. Until then, two things in life again, studies and guitar. I’ll do 1 more post before the school holidays ends. Posting here is getting addictive… =D

No more fooling around

Another post for the end of Term 1. Thank God it’s Friday, but this holidays are quite packed as well, again so much things to do, yet so little time. It’s supposedly the holidays, but why are there so many things on? Life’s going to knock you hard at times, and you just have to stand up.

Not really happy with my performance this term. Why? Because I know I’m not trying my best, and it is reflecting on my results. I get easily demoralized when I do bad, and I should be using this to push forward or not sit back and ponder on it. The negative influence I have been getting isn’t helping much, but no excuses. I will do better, and mug the fuck out of myself. I’m not really using much vulgarities now as compared to before, but I’m fucking serious. A’s may seen like 8 months away, but time flies, and you gotta use every minute of it. If others don’t take it seriously, just let them play a fool out of themselves. Mugging a few hours won’t prove anything, it’s consistent mugging which matters, and making sure every concept down to the details are at your fingertip.

A results for the seniors came back, and I kinda feel pressurized. They did well and got a holiday for us (which I went out to mug for the first time for a few weeks). Met Mr Yap during the day itself, and he told the guys: “Learn from the success, and don’t repeat from all the failures”. Later, he would express that Dr Foo should have let us see the joys and tears of our seniors, which I strongly agree. Sometimes, you need to see the end-result to have a clear goal. Do you want to be the one hugging someone for joy, or crying on someone’s shoulder? The next two terms would be absolutely crucial, and I will make sure I’ll push myself to the limits, even if it kills me. Ok maybe note, health always come first.

To assist myself to achieve this seemingly impossible goal, I will list 5 major things I will do:

1. Stop using the computer
2. Stop watching Korean Dramas
3. Stop surfing Facebook during school
4. Stop playing Monopoly Deal and use all my free period wisely
5. Stop whining about the small obstacles in life

Notice that all of them are ‘stops’ instead of ‘starts’, but I believe that once I achieve these ‘stops’, they would turn naturally to ‘starts’. You can’t achieve instant success, there’s no easy way out. This may seem impossible for a stupid bastard like me, but I will at least try it out. It’s always good to have a go instead of pondering if it is a waste of time, cause even if you fail, it would be a good life lesson. I told myself when I find things impossible to overcome, “If you want a miracle, you need to make one out yourself.”

My CT is worried about my class, and she has every right to do so. As a chairperson, I feel so powerless because I’m not good myself and have no idea on how to help them. She told me to try and push them to work harder, and in certain ways, I can see their effort. Most of them mug harder than me, yet they aren’t producing the results they want. Life’s a bitch at times, and you don’t reap what you put in. Ahhhhhhhhhh as I type this, I feel so flustered, maybe because I am in no position to be venting about my class. Hopefully, my class would finally get the results they deserve and push themselves out of the bottom. Typing this paragraph is giving me the sighs, I don’t even have the time to worry for myself, but classmates are classmates, you want them to do well. Lets go 6C24 (Even though no one knows of this blog. LOL) Fighting!

I’ll set a few goals for myself for CTs, too early to set goals for A’s, and CTs would be a good gauge for the Prelims. Take it one step at a time, so here goes:

H1 Geog: B
H1 GP: D
H2 Chem: B
H2 Econs: B
H2 Maths: A

Seems unrealistic right? Especially the Chemistry and Econs grades, B’s? I’m setting myself hard goals which are not impossible to achieve. If I was crazy enough, I would be aiming straight A’s. So, I will work towards this grades, and I will put my wants into actions. I know that the school will back me up, so all I have to do is put in the effort. Easier said than done, but I will try.

Why am I still here? I’ll probably post less here, maybe write some GP stuff here or something, lols. Let’s go do some mugging!

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish – Steve Jobs @ Stanford 2005

Although I’m not really a fan of Apple products, you gotta admit that Steve Jobs is one of the most amazing person in the world. His talk in Stanford was only 20 minutes long, but it has taught me a lot about life. The other talk which has inspired me a lot is probably Randy Pausch’s “The Last Lecture”.

I won’t go through the details of the talk, but more of the lessons that I learnt after listening to the talk. Steve Jobs to me is a perfect example of a zero-to-hero. Dropped out of college, created and built up a company of net worth $2 billion dollars, got kicked out of his own company, didn’t give up and came back and Steve Job’s current wealth is probably higher than most countries’ GDP. One thing that struck me hard is the fact that he got kicked out Apple. How do you get kicked out of your own company. You took years to go to the top, and in a flash, it’s all gone and you’re rock bottom again. However, Steve Jobs came back stronger than before, and maybe these incidents are blessings in disguise.

It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don’t lose faith.

Nowadays, I’m getting affected by the small troubles in life, and we must realise that life never is a smooth journey. If it is, then what’s the point of it? You’re just stagnant there and unable to improve yourself. I always tell myself that you can only taste success after failure, and when you fail, you need to learn from it. I probably discussed about failure millions of time, and the most important thing is to pick yourself up after failure. And who knows? Failure can be the “one of the best things that ever happened”.

Another thing I learnt about, which Steve Jobs didn’t really cover much, but I really like, is about how you live your life. Our time is limited, so why waste it thinking about irrelevant stuff? Live your OWN life, do what you want and like to do. You only got a chance at life, so don’t limit yourself by boundaries. Live how you want to, and don’t be trapped by other’s thinking. I suppose other people’s opinions may bother you, but who cares? As long as you are happy, everything would be fine. Don’t sacrifice your own happiness for others, it’s not worth it. Sometimes, you just gotta trust that the future would be alright if you are living your life the right way. Here is one of the quotes from Randy Pausch:

It’s not about how to achieve your dreams. It’s about how to lead your life. If you lead your life the right way, the karma will take care of itself. The dreams will come to you.

The last one I learnt is achieving your dreams. Put your words into action is another principle I would always tell myself. You only get to live your life once, so spend it well. For Steve Jobs, he dropped out of college and never looked back. That is what I really admire, the quality where he had absolutely no regrets. In life, you need to do everything the best, so that there will be never any regrets. If you have something you really want, translate that into your actions and try your best and have no regrets. Don’t ever compare yourself to others because it’s your best, and that is what matters the most.

I felt like I’m typing a transcript of my own speech, haha. I will follow this up with a reflection of my Term 1 in JC2. Until then, stay hungry, stay foolish.