My mind is currently blank. But still, I would like to write this post as a source of inspiration for the future and something I can refer back to in the future.
One senior told me, tutorials are the most important things to do. Don’t lack behind, and it’s a must to do them. I’m trying a new approach of chionging my tutorials, and in some sense it’s working. I’m way ahead in Maths, somehow ahead in Chemistry (because my teacher is soooooo slow) and ok with Economics (especially when your teacher don’t go through much). I find myself trying too much at times, but I’m guess that’s necessary if you want to do well. These few days I’m questioning myself, how badly do I want my As? But more importantly, how much am I willing to put in for those grades? I badly want those As, but I question if I have the ability to get them. Sometimes, your best isn’t good enough, but that does not mean that you should just slack, which I am guilty of these days.
So what for Term 2? I was low on morale these past days, no thanks to the 사랑니 (love tooth), better known as wisdom tooth. What an irony. I haven’t had good sleep in a while, and I go to school all tired and can’t do anything productive. However, the ‘closet mugger’ (lol) sense in me naturally came back and I started to pick myself up. I now believe that I’m a stronger person already, and it’s been only a week. From now, I won’t care about all the negatives around me, because as I said before but somehow I can’t apply, it’s just not worth the time. If they fuck around, let them be. I want my As, and I will willing go to the other side of the canteen or the library and mug myself for two and a half hours. (Geez, I think I’m repeating the same stuff all over and over again…)
Now I know that I’m no more at the bottom, I’ll have to slowly work to the top. You must realize that the people at the top are probably putting in more effort than you, so not only you must match it, you must put in more effort than the ridiculous amount of effort that they are putting in. My guitar instructor told us that you must make yourself so good that no one can catch up with you. I’m living by that rule now: Making sure that no one at the bottom can catch up with you, and putting in endless effort to push yourself to the top. Time is absolutely important, so you can’t waste any minute of it. For any time you slack, you are giving people to catch up to you. Don’t give them even a little bit of chance to get up.
Lol this post is kinda quite moody and not really happy. I’ll try to write when I’m happier next time haha. Won’t be so active here, maybe after SYF or something, but I’ll surely be still here. At the meantime, this is one the most incredible live performance I’ve seen in a while. Love every second of it, from the instrumental to the backup vocals to Justin Timberlake =D